For better or for worse

You know you did something right in your life if you have friends who stick with you not only when you're at your best but most especially when you're at your worst.

I know I may have taken these two for granted. Well, not for granted, we just had some misunderstandings. I'm glad we got through all that and still have each others' backs. It's as nothing has changed. We just got stronger and more open to each other.

Last weekend, we celebrated our birthdays together.
I know, we're clingy and corny like that. Lol.
We were booked a hotel room at The Villas, SBMA but few days before last Saturday they called and said they were booking us at Buma Hotel because they had some shit going on at the building we were supposed to stay. It was a bummer but we didn't let that ruin our plans. After all, what's important is we were together, right? :)

More or less than 9 years with this two..
After everything I went through, everything I said, everything I did, they are still there.
I can't thank God enough for giving me friends like these two.

23 years of existence.
I can say that we all have learned a lot.
Life wise.
Friendship wise.
Love wise.
Family wise.
I'm glad that we are all in this journey of reaching for our dreams.
I can't ask for better friends cause I already have the best.
Sounds cliche but I wish us all good health, more birthdays and blessings to come!!
Joyful hearts and peaceful life.

If you're both reading this, I love you two <3

Dazed

"You look so pretty you're making me mad"

I won't say I'm falling again.
I won't deny that that made me smile.
I'll admit that I like him. Not in an intense way.
Not like before cause I know he is still a fuckboy.
Even more, now that he is single.

I'm so afraid to blog it here.
Cause I don't wanna jinx it or make a big deal out of it.
But I gotta get it out of my head. I just have to.
Cause either way, if it's not meant to be, no need to worry about.

I don't know what kind of game is he in.
I don't know if I'm the only girl he talks to... lol doubt that a million times.
But I'm just glad he makes time to message me every once in a while.
Maybe I should just stop being so....... I don't know.. sentimental? appreciative? Or whatever.

I don't know why I'm thinking about this so much.
It's not like I see myself being in this long term.
Even if it happens, it won't work anyway.
I am foretelling this already even if it's not even close to happening yet.
I just know it wouldn't.

Lol I feel lame blogging this and I don't even know if he really likes me.
OOOOOOOOOOH OKAY DELETE BYE

And they lived happily ever after..

"Love isn't something you find. Love is something that finds you."

Whenever I attend weddings or watch wedding videos on YouTube, I can't help but daydream about how it is gonna be on my wedding day. It was like I set aside my "I'm never gonna get married" thoughts for a moment and just picture everything from my wedding dress to the flowers I will put on each table at the reception. It makes me tear up whenever I do that, it gives me that overwhelming feeling that, finally, everything is right. But, of course, that was all just a daydream. I am still 50/50 on the getting married thing, maybe because I don't even have a boyfriend right now. Lol

Digital people @ Emman & Charmaine's Wedding

Last Saturday, I went to Emman's wedding.
Emman was my team mate from my previous project.
It was a simple wedding with their family and friends.
I can still remember tearing up while Charmaine was walking down the aisle.
Tears of joy. It was such an intimate moment that you're just steps away from the one you will spend your lifetime with and with God as the witness.
For a moment there, all my doubts faded and my hope in love restored.
I don't know Charmaine personally but with how Emman told us their story, I know and I can tell that it is meant to be. They went through a lot and still found the way to each other. True love.

As of this moment, I am terrified of the thought of marriage.
Maybe because I grew up witnessing a failed marriage and I just don't want to go through that.
I am terrified but I am also hoping. There is that little faith in me that wishes or hopes that someone will come along and prove that I don't have anything to be scared about, that it is different with him, someone who will make all those doubts disappear.... I know, someday he'll come. Someday.

High as a balloon

 

 

After days of whining and being all sad, I finally went out.
I realized it's pointless to be sad about something that isn't there anymore.. so moving on and focusing on the people who are still there. After all, life goes on. It will all get better in time.
And yes, too many pictures for this post cause I don't have much to say.

 

 

So anyway, I went out with Darwin and two new friends last Friday night!
It is always fun at Valkyrie. I had a good time. It was nice going out and not caring about anything.