Not gonna miss ya, 2020

12/31/2020

It's that time of the year again.
Ending it again with a post reflecting on everything that happened this year.
To be honest, this year literally felt longer that any other year.
Spent most of it at home, working from home, getting drunk alone at home lol
Despite everything I feel like this year made me find myself again.
The quarantine has taken its toll to everyone’s mental health but, hey, I’m just glad we all made it through.

I wanna do the same thing I did last year by posting pics for each month but if I do that, all I’ll be posting is pictures of me at home so where’s the fun in that? lol
Let’s just do this in bullet style and get it over with!

January

Awts, Mau and I at Kelly and Kevin's wedding

Had to hike for 2-3hrs reach Blue Soil Hills

Sagada with work friends

This selfie was taken after 3 consecutive days of solo drinking and sulking then Johnny and I started talking and I felt this good so I had to take selfies lol

• Isabel, Carl and I went out for dinner and drinks at Timog

February

Weekend beach trip with these two <3

Samgyup dinner with Jyl and Daisu & yes, I dyed my hair back to black

March

• Corona decided to be a huge bitch. This month is the start of lockdown.
• Didn't really do anything much, just stayed at home and worked.
• Johnny's birth month. He was so happy with the blanket I got him.

April

• Still on lockdown
• Occasionally went at my grandma's to have lunch with family

May

Birthday 2020. Yes, this was from my film camera. Boodle fight lunch with family.

• Johnny told me he loves me on my birthday
• Still on lockdown

June-July

Sums up my mood for June and July lol

• Was still on lockdown
• Decided to submit my resignation by end of July

August

Finally got to see Johnaley after months

Virtual catch up with Daisu, Jyl and Nianth

Got some stuff from 3M and my work laptop yay

• For some reason, this month I decided to talk to Johnny less.
• Decided to get a new car.

September

Bangs with Tita Maan and Erin

• First month with the new company. It was refreshing. Work life balance is real lol

October

New kitty alert!! Eevee

Also, got new specs from Sunnies. And I feel like my hair grew longer

November

Tito Famz bday celeb

Di kami kumpleto but reunion with friends cause Anthony is back!

• This month I realized I started enjoying fridays and holidays again
• Can't explain further cause I don't wanna jinx it but Tyler and I are doing good <3

December

Wasn't expecting this at all. Given that I've been with 3M for 3 months and getting this. I feel so appreciated. Definitely one of the highlights of this year.

Nanay Josie turned 94

Eevee growing huhu

Decided to get bangs for a change lol

• Decided to fully cut off Andy, Johnny and everyone connected to them. Realized that Johnny wasn't really worth it after all. Still thankful for him but ya know.. it was just not worth it after all.

Overall, still thankful for this year. Thankful that me and my family are safe. This year really made a lot of us appreciate time with our families more. This pandemic needs to be over! I hope as this year ends, it takes Rona with it lol

~ I didn't get to travel this year as planned because obviously travel ban, lockdown and everything. Prolly one of the reasons I went crazy.

~ I didn't expect this year would be the year I leave Acn but still not regretting it. It just felt like it was the right time to leave. My former manager has been asking me to come back but, so far, I’m enjoying my new company. Everyone is just so welcoming and I’m enjoying the new working environment. Can't wait to meet everyone in person.

~ New Year 2020, I told myself I wouldn’t be sad over Andy anymore. I don't wanna be sad on new year because of him anymore cause I've been sad for the past couple new years because of him. As I’m writing this post, it's new year's eve and I can say that I'm not sad over Andy anymore or even Johnny. I’ll take that as a win.

~ So, how am I feeling? I'm feeling good. My heart is happy. Tinotopak ako from time to time but it is such an amazing feeling when you choose happiness and peace of mind over anything. Finding myself, knowing my worth, regaining that self love.... aaaaah it makes all the heartaches, tears and everything in between worth it.

I am hopeful and looking forward to a great 2021.

Claiming everything already. Manifesting it everyday.

Happy new year everyone!

I'm drama-free

It's sad cause I thought we would always be in each other's lives as friends.

We've helped each other get through our dark days this year. He's thankful for me, I’m thankful for him.

It is sadder how that has to change just because some person's insecurity decides to make shit up.

Some people really crave for that drama in their life.

I don’t know why. Maybe it's for the thrill.

Probably it's to conceal reality.

I don't know.

I just know it's wack how she decided to step up her game with him when she knew he was moving on and we were talking. lol

I don't blame him if he sticks with her though.

Even when he knows she’s shady as fuck and lies all the time lol. Everybody knows she's shady.

I know he loves her, he has loved her for all these years. I can't blame him for doing everything to keep her now.

I just hope she stops with her lies. I just hope she gives him what he deserves.

But it's whatever.

I cared for him. I guess I somewhat still do but it's not the same anymore.

I don't even want him in my life at all.

I feel like I still care for him because I know how it feels like to be in his shoes where I would do anything to keep someone even if that person is toxic as fuck.

Those kind of feelings can blind the shit out of you.

I'm glad I’m now out of that situation.

I hate how the idea of that person made me stupid lol

I'm drama-free

I'm just happy as it is

You know when I used to say that someday I would wake up and I won't think about that person no more? Yup, that someday happened.

I've been waking up feeling lighter and better and it's just a wonderful feeling.

He wasn't worth it. He ain't shit lol

I'm thankful that I'm ending 2020 with a clear mind, happy heart and soul.

I am claiming it.

I'm still here

I'm trying to procrastinate with work so here I am making this blog post lol

2020 is about to end and, hopefully, this pandemic goes with it too.

It has been a long year.

Didn’t get to travel but always grateful that my family is safe and healthy.

Didn't get to do most stuff I would’ve wanted to do this year but always grateful for the blessings.

This ain't my 2020 recap post yet but I gotta say that this year tested the new me.

There were down times but it's amazing how I got out of it so quickly and gracefully.

Maybe this is what all those years of heartbreak has taught me. lol

Always aiming for that. That is the end goal.

I've been spoiling myself lately. It's insane.

No regrets or guilt though.

We are all in for self love.

Nothing much to say but just wanna keep this blog active.

I'm not gonna get into the other stuff, let's save that for another post and keep this light~