The adventures and rants of being single, page 1

Almost two years of being single and I'm starting to think if I will ever end up with someone.I mean, don't get me wrong. I don't regret anything. I don't regret getting out of my almost 6 years relationship. I learned a lot from it. I learned to love and appreciate myself more.
It's just there comes a time, like this, that you start to think if you will ever find someone who will love you and stay with you for the long run.

If I will compare myself from the girl I was two years ago, I would say that I have changed a lot.
I like to think that I became this independent girl who just doesn't give a shit, who got so tired of the bullshit this world has.
I'm no longer afraid to speak what's on my mind. I can go to the movies or eat out alone.
I am happy with how I am now.
It's just... sometimes, when I'm stuck at home, I can't help but think... Am I too independent that it scares them away?

Cause I know every man has a fear of a strong minded woman

I sometimes think that the more a guy gets to know me, the more he realizes that I'm too independent, that I do what I want, that I don't let guys tell me what to do...
I mean, yeah, I don't let guys tell me what to do cause I have my own brain, I can think for myself.
I know what's wrong and what's right for me.
There's a big difference between being cute jealous and annoying possessiveness.
I don't let someone else decide who I should be friends with.
If he doesn't like my friends then that's his problem.
Cause, for me, as long as they are not interfering with the relationship then there's no reason to forbid being friends with them. Well, except if the "friends" are a bad influence in some way then that's a different issue.

But no rush!
I mean, yeah, two years is a long time being single... compared to the other hoes who jump from one relationship to another. Lol jk
I had my fair share of dating and I'm enjoying it. FREE FOOD! lol
And after all, going into a relationship when you're unsure or for the sake of having one is so wrong anyway. I don't roll like that.
I wanna be in a relationship where I won't even think twice or doubt if it's for the long run... a relationship where it compliments with my career.
Compliments with my career in a way that I don't even have to think about it when I do get some career opportunities cause career will always be one of my priorities for me.


Gahhhhhh, maybe my future husband is reading this now and is thinking how demanding and arte I am lol

The victim card

Oh well, might as well react to it while I'm in the mood.
Honestly, I don't give a fuck but saying that I am playing the victim card is just pathetic.
I never play that shit cause I don't wanna look like I'm begging for some sympathy cause hell no.
My silence doesn't mean I'm playing any game lol
I'm not saying anything cause I know I was wrong.
I admitted I was wrong and apologized for it but I never begged for sympathy, I never acted like I was the one aggravated.
I remember saying I'm not gonna rat out that person just to make me look good cause hell if I would, I would be looking squeaky clean but If I do, I will be just like her. Pathetic and manipulative. Saying awful things just to make you say shit too then will twist the story and make you look like you're the one who said it all. Meh. That is so high school. I'm done with that kind of drama.

It feels like a cycle... it felt like a cycle and I don't wanna be on that anymore.
I should've just cut ties a long time ago but, like they said, everything happens for a reason and I can see all those reasons. I've learned a lot from it.

And besides, I blocked both of them for a reason.
I blocked them from getting or reading or seeing any updates from me.
So, why can't they just shut the fuck up?
Let just all live in peace lol
And if y'all really into digging into everything, make sure you dig on your side too.
We all said shit about each other. Don't be so denial about yourselves.
Anyway, whatever. Like I said, I'm done.
Time may or may not heal but it will surely pass.
One thing's for sure, no more going back.

High and tanned

I just love going to the beach.
I love how it relaxes me.
I love how everything is just so beautiful.

Last weekend, my friends from work and I went to a weekend beach getaway.
We left work around 6pm to catch the 7pm bus to Zambales.
I know I am from Zambales but I haven't really explored around.
We stayed at Capones Vista Beach Resort. I just have to say that I didn't expect that the resort was that nice. It wasn't a hotel like resort, it has villas surrounding the pool and it has a nice view of Camara Island.

This is the view from the resort. You can see the Camara island right theeeeere

Camara Island was the first island we went to. It's a small island that is like 5 to 10 minutes away from the resort. It has this whale-shaped rock which I didn't notice until one of my friends pointed it out. Lol I'm lame. It wasn't that low tide when we went there so we didn't get the chance to go the whale rock. Half of the sand bar that leads to the whale rock still visible on the picture I took below though.

Fair warning that I took a lot of selfies during this trip cause.... why the hell not? lol

Whale-shaped rock

Girls groufie @ Camara Island

Next stop! Capones Island
This is my favorite island out of the three islands we went to. The water, the waves, the view, the sand, the everything... it's all just so relaxing and beautiful. And I think I took too many photos there cause it was all just picture perfect.

Me trying not to slip on the slippery rock

Nian was telling me to arrange my legs in a nice angle

Me trying to pull my shorts up

And finally!! An Instagram worthy shot. LOL

Did I mention how beautiful the waves and how clear the water was?

Me and Dice trying to sport a "turista" shot

Last stop was Anawangin Island!
Honestly, the island was so pretty and postcard perfect from afar but when we got there.. the island was just tooooo "developed" and crowded. I wouldn't even think of camping there cause it was just too crowded and a bit messy inside the "camp site". There is this nice river located on the right end of the island though and I think you can even take a hike (but we didn't cause we lazy lol)

The whole crew for that weekend getaway (well, minus kuya bangkero)

I think this was on the way to Anawangin Island

The only picture I took at Anawangin Island cause the little flying insects were shitty and kept biting us. We didn't enjoy our lunch that much... thanks to them. :(

After the island hopping, we went back to the resort.
Of course, we didn't miss the chance to take pictures with the sunset.
I think it's a mandatory moment whenever people go to the beach.

Sunsets make me feel like God is reminding me that there is so much in life to be thankful for

We didn't really take many pictures inside the room cause we were too sleepy and the beds were so comfy. It was a fun weekend. I enjoyed every bit of the adventure. Always fun wandering to new places.

Bed too comfy lol and can you believe that that tub of gummy worms beside me only costs Php 70!!! YES THIS IS THE GOOD GOOD

Last pictures at the resort. Minus Moks who was taking the pictures lol. How negra am I? LOL

I would like to thank the weather and God for not letting it rain all weekend and everyone was safe. Amen! Until next adventure!!!

5/6

Last night was Patrick's birthday dinner at Sambokojin.
It has been months since I last saw Isabel and Patrick.
Of course, I see Darwin often & I sometimes see Alexon around the office building but we don't really talk much cause.... of what had happened but this is not the first time we went out with friends anyway, the first time was with Pew and Charles and that turned out okay too. It wasn't like before but, at least, it was a start.

It was nice catching up and being able to be with these guys again.
If I could turn back time, I honestly won't make the mistakes I did. Just cause I love how everything was back then with these guys. The friendship, the adventures, everything.. but what's done is done and I can say that time somehow healed everything and that God really works in mysterious ways. "This, too, shall pass" & it all did. It's awesome how everything worked out in the end.

And, of course, we weren't that complete that night cause Carl is still in Dubai... so, we just video called with him.. (Picture is low quality as fuck and we all look like Minecraft) lol
I hope one day we can all be in one place at the same time like the old times but better versions of ourselves.

I know, it's pretty late and nonsense to bring this up but if ever she's reading this, you know who you are, I'm sorry for everything that happened. What happened hurt me so bad but it must've hurt you way more and I was too selfish to think about that. I apologize for everything I said and did. If I can turn back time, I would take it all back

Alright, no more drama.
Thank you, Lord, for this joy in my heart.