Built-in bestfriend

We are not twins

Spent my Saturday with the little sister. We went to the mall, bought new phone cases, pigged out at Pizza Hut, walked around the city. It may all sound so boring but it wasn't. It was actually fun, not too tiring day with her. Maybe because I missed her and that it was an opportunity to catch up since I don't go home often.

Just trying to take a "blogger" shot

Cheat day!

Hot date

After that, we went home and had a movie night + last episode of The Vampire Diaries that broke my heart into pieces because no more Elena... that bonding ended 10 minutes ago. She's now sleeping. Yes, we watched three movies. One is The Duff which was supposed to be an adaptation from the book but it was sooooooooo far from the book. I think, even though I'm not done reading it, the book is better. Well, it always is. Anyway, the second one is The Trophy Wife, a local movie, it was insane. Totally didn't expect it to be that way. 'twas nice. The last movie was LOL. It was a nice movie. I missed Miley's hair BUT damn Douglas Booth was freaking hot. H-O-T. I can't even contain myself whenever he clings to Miley in the movie. Like kiss her neck or just cuddle or be clingy. Haha The movie plot was nice. And lastly, we watched the last episode of The Vampire Diaries, it was so heartbreaking. My heart still aches.The flashback scenes were the reason I have panda eyes. Can't help but cry :(

Overall, this day was pretty much awesome. Fun bonding with the little sista. Oh, a friend visited me too. That friend shouldn't be named for now because he is not that special... yet. Or whatever.

And also, my super sweet sister bought matching necklaces. Made my heart awe. :")

Nautical theme matching necklaces c/o the little sis. I smell Larry Stylinson lol

New case looks like Zayn's hand tattoo <3

6:15 AM and I should sleep because I'll be going back to Manila in a few hours.

Boo hoo, Monday.

I look fat as fuck but whatever
Top&Shorts: Forever 21; Bag: Steve Madden; Shoes: Toms

Cliché

Been there, done that.

Here I am again...
Trying to convince myself that this is not like the last time.
Trying to convince myself that this would work this time.
Trying to convince myself that it wouldn't just disappear like the last time.
Scratch that trying. I am already convinced.

But can you blame me for it?
Can you blame me for hoping it will last?
Can you blame me for praying for it to work?
Can you blame me for wishing that it wouldn't end?
Can you blame for never giving up on love?
Call me hopeless romantic, stupid or even a martyr, I really don't care anymore.
I guess I would rather hurt and know I have tried than not try and be hurt still.
Because either way or eventually, I will get hurt. So why not risk getting hurt knowing you did what you wanted to do?

Everybody, even if they try to deny it, wants to be loved and to be in love.
It's just a magical feeling that can make or break your day.
It's like a break from it all. A break from all the shit world has to offer.
Every love is different. It might start the same or maybe end the same... but the journey will never be the same.
I had my fair share of heartbreaks. Fair does not even cover it all but I'll go with that.
Every heartache gave me a new lesson. A lesson that I can carry to my journey on finding the one for me. Sounds cliché but... it's true. :)

I know, I've written hundreds of blog posts telling how I am so happy and then sad and then happy over and over and over and over again like I never learned anything but I have.
I am just scared of regrets.
I don't wanna wake up one day regretting the things I should've done instead of keeping it all in, that's what I learned the time my heart got broken from Alexon. I kept it all in. I held myself back. I didn't say what I really wanna say. I just gave him up that easy and when I wanted to fight for him, it was all too late. He was too tied up with someone else already.
I don't wanna wake up one day realizing that I wasted too much time on something I am not sure of. And that is what I learned from Edz. I kept reasoning out with myself that I can settle for it. I kept coming back. I didn't wanna let go of my comfort zone, that safe and secure zone. It just made everything so harder to let go because I spent most of my growing years with him. And whenever I look back, it will always be with him which kills me every time.

Those were the two major chapters in my life that made me realize a lot of things.
From self-worth to living every moment.
And now, I'm just living in the moment.
I might get hurt in the process of it all but, at least, I know I tried.
It doesn't matter how many times you fall, what matters is how strong you become whenever you stand.

Valentine's update

I'm back!
It has been a month. I've been so busy with work lately. Like crazy busy.
I can say that I love having that love and hate relationship with programming.
I can feel that I have developed myself little by little. Like the things that were hard for me before, I can now do it like a pro. Well, not like a pro pro but you get what I'm saying.
What's up with me? Well, nothing so new. Same old me. Just productive. :)

The heart is doing okay. I think it's okay.
I have my fair share of down moments. Like missing someone, reminiscing shit, realizations, regrets, shoulda, woulda, coulda... and all.
But at the end of the day, I don't even care anymore. Being idle is a pain in the ass.
Like when I'm on my way to work or on my way home or the moment when I can't sleep or weekends. Those were the only time thoughts of having a boyfriend enter my mind. Idle times.
I know, it's pathetic. Like I can only think of being with someone because I don't have things to do or think of. Which leads me to realize that maybe I'm not ready for a relationship yet, another responsibility, another commitment and maybe rushing into those things again will just result in me getting my heart broken again.
I don't want that. At napapa "Bahala na nga lang" ako.

Heh! Enough of that sappy shit. It's Valentine's day today. Happy Valentine's Day, everybody.
Happy for the people who found that someone they can picture forever with.
And for the people who haven't found their someone yet, like me, don't lose hope. Don't look for it. It will come. Right time, right place.

As for me, I am very much into creating more progress with my career.
Exploring, wandering, taking risks, developing myself.
I wanna tour the world. I wanna meet new people. I wanna invest. I wanna be stable.
So, when that right one comes, everything will just fall into place. Easy as pie. No complications. <3

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Better late than never!
Happy New Year, my imaginary readers.
New year, a new book to make, new chapters to build, new chances... so use it wisely.
Goals set and plans are made. Let's get it on!

Spent New Year's Eve with the family.
I can never imagine celebrating it any other way.

Y'all have a fruitful year ahead of you! Less drama, more fun! :)

Top & Shoes: Cotton On; Skort: Forever21; Bracelets: Juicy Couture & Pandora