2016 recap

Mandatory year end blog post, of course.
It has been a hella roller coaster ride for me this year.
Ups and downs. Guy problems. Fake friends. Family stuff.
I'm so glad that I went through all that and survived in one piece, with a smile on my face and in my heart.

If you meet the last year's version of me, you will meet a whole different person.
I've changed. A lot.
And I like that change. A lot.

I'm glad I've finally sorted, not everything, but almost everything out. Makes me feel like I have things figured out. Lol

Friends, I'm all good in that area now. No longer too sentimental to cut people who are too toxic and/or just doesn't have that positive effect in my life. I lost Anri but I no longer feel sad about it. Hell, I even wonder if it was really worth it anyway.. knowing how everything was so pretentious and fake. I sometimes miss her but I'm just glad I'm done with that. Same goes for Giana, not sad bout this one though plus I don't miss her at all and I'm glad she's no longer in my life. I am also happy that I have reconnected with some friends who I lost contact with over the years. I can say that I've gained more than I lost and I wouldn't have it any other way.

Guys, I had my fair share of dating this year. Jumping into a relationship is not really a priority right now but my dating life has been good. I don't wanna namedrop or say much bout it cause there is really nothing much to say. The important thing is that I'm happy and my heart is at peace.

Family, We had a major bump this year. but, thank God, everything went okay. It's so amazing how God makes things work in the end. I am very thankful for that. I can't imagine celebrating holidays without my family. They are the best gift I have ever received.

Career, Work has been good. It's either super busy or super slow. There's is no in between. The thing about having a career is that I discover more about what I'm capable of doing, more about what and who I am and more about what I can offer. Like I never knew that I can do stuff that I even surprise myself. It's true what they always say - learning, it never stops.

I discovered a lot about myself this year.
The good and the bad.
I grew more independent this year too.
Too independent that I know when to walk away from the things I don't deserve.
Too independent that I think it scares guys away.
Too independent that whenever I feel like I'm catching feelings for someone, I tend to run away. Lol, okay, not too independent on this one, just my commitment issues catching up on me. I gotta work on that.
I am glad how much I grew up this year.
If I am given the chance to have a do-over of this year, I would make a little tweaks on how I handled some things, I would cut ties with Anri and Giana from the very beginning of this year, I wouldn't buy those pink rompers at Aeropostale, I would buy a pug, I would visit Tyler when he was still based in Japan, I would skip gym that one Sunday to avoid that sprained ankle..... there are other minor changes I would do if I was given the chance but I wouldn't change anything on how I've become, how much I've changed because I like every part of it.

2016 wasn't really my year but still thankful for everything.
I'm ready, 2017.

Circle Hostel

December 29th, I went to San Felipe, Zambales with my high school friends.
We always make it a point to have a mini reunion every year and this year is the first time that all of us were able to go.
We stayed in Circle Hostel.
The place was nice. Very low key. Clean. Bunk beds were spacious. There are common areas where you can hang out. People are nice (well, some guests were annoying lol arte eh). But, overall, I would say that staying in Circle Hostel was a nice experience.

The Cliff

Last December 28th, impulsive friends decided to go here in Olongapo.
No plans, no reservations but still as long as we're togethaaaaa.
They arrived here around 9 in the morning then we decided to drive along Barreto to find a place to stay. We inquired in several resort hotels then found The Cliff beside El Molina.
The place was not crowded at all when we went there.
The accommodation was okay. Old but it was okay.
They have at least 5 security guards roaming around.
We didn't really do much but it was fun to be able to spend time with them.

10:45 and drunk

I don't know why but I can't sleep.

I'd like to think it's the alcohol but alcohol usually makes me sleep extra sweet at night.

But right now, I can't even feel sleepy.

I'm intoxicated, frustrated & mostly disappointed.

I feel so stupid. So dumb stupid.

I fell for it again. After everything, I went through, after everything I put inside my head just to get over it.

I feel so weak. I feel so out of control. I'm crying right now and it's not even worth it.

Maybe I'm just drunk. Drunk and being impulsive.

Impulsive because I blocked him on Facebook Messenger.

I also blocked someone not even related to this on Snapchat because I got so pissed.

Oh, what a life.

Maybe that's just it. It can never be because I always let it just be this way.

I always complain how it is but I never make a way to make everything change. 

Or I don't know what I'm saying cause I don't know and this post has no sense at all