Saturdate

I went out with my mommah and sis yesterday.
It was a simple Saturday well spent with them.
We ate late lunch at Ben's Kitchen. I updated mommah with what's going on with me.
We went to catch the 4:50 pm showing of How to be yours. See my review here.
Then went to Meat Plus for dinner.
It was tiring but fun.

At MeatPlus, SBMA

Lol that Spicy Buffalo Wings though... Mmmmmm

Thanks to my sis who did my brows lol

Movie Review - How to be yours

Yesterday, Erin and I wanted to watch Nerve but the momma wanted to watch How To Be Yours.

How To Be Yours is a Filipino movie starring Bea Alonzo and Gerald Anderson.

• It was about a boy who in the start of the movie has a stable life, working in sales but doesn't have a girlfriend and a girl who was an aspiring chef.
• They got along well and eventually became boyfriend and girlfriend.
• Fast forward to the scene where Anj (Bea Alonzo) was offered to apply at Chef Pocholo's (Bernard Palanca) restaurant and of course she got in.
• Anj's work became so toxic cause Chef Pocholo was a bitch.
• Nino (Gerald Anderson) quit his job for the reason of "Anj needs her right now" which I think was bullshit. Why would you quit the job you are good at because you think your girlfriend, who has a job, needs you? I don't get it.
• Anyway, Anj got promoted and became sous-chef. Which meant she got busier with work and barely had time for Nino.
• Anj got promoted again to head chef. Nino got a telco job.
• Nino started to feel neglected and that Anj doesn't have the time for her anymore.
• Anj was supposed to run Chef Pocholo's new restaurant but the sponsors think that Anj lack of experience. So, Chef Pocholo offered Anj to go to Paris for two years to get more experience.
• Nino freaked out when Anj told him about it. Then they broke up.
• After a year, I think, Anj got her own restaurant but she feels lonely and empty even if she has everything she ever dreamed of.
• Nino got better with the Telco job and tried dating. Tried but didn't succeed.
• They saw each other again and had coffee.
• Then they got back together again.

I think this movie is okay. Typical Filipino movie. Nothing special, it really doesn't have a plot twist in it. And I hate how they made it look like you have to choose between your career and your love life to get everything you dreamed of. They made it look like it was lonely and empty even if you have achieved everything you dreamed of just because you don't have a love life. And I don't like how they still ended up together. I mean, yeah, it made sense when Nino freaked out when Anj told him about the Paris stuff but it's pure bs that he claims to support her but doesn't want her to go to Paris and that it came to a point where he made it look like she has to choose.

I just think we all deserve to be with someone like Drew Arellano. Lol okay random but hear me out.
On his wedding vow to Iya Villania and I quote, "I promise to give you the freedom to be the successful girl you are destined to be...".
My point is being with someone shouldn't hinder you to achieve your dreams. It shouldn't hold you back. It shouldn't be a complication to decide. It shouldn't even make you choose between your career or your love life.
Lol and maybe this is why I'm single.

[Book Review] Avoiding Series by K.A. Linde

Just finished reading the last book for Avoiding Series and all I can say is that it's bullshit.
I mean, the books were well written and the story has nice plot twists but the ending was pure bullshit.

Side note: Yup! New post tag - Reviews. Just cause I need to get out of ranting on Twitter whenever I finish a book. (I'm just too into it whenever I read a book lol). But this won't be a typical review where I will tell the summary of the story blah blah blah. Well, I might do a bit of that but mostly I will just rant about what I think, feel about the story lol So yeah

I'm gonna do this by bullets cause I suck at paragraph form of summarizing lol

• Lexi and Jack were the two main characters of the story. They were fuck buddies... well, okay, friends with benefits. Even if they have different boyfriends/girlfriends, they will sleep with each other and that lasted for years.
• They tried working it out with each other but, eventually and of course, Jack slept with someone else and Lexi knew bout it. She felt dumb and decided to cut things off with Jack.
• Jack moved back to Atlanta and Lexi stayed in New York to finish her law school.
• After a couple of years, Jack out of the blue called her to ask her to come to Atlanta just because his fiance, Bekah Bridges, has this experiment to talk to all Jack's ex-girlfriends to figure out why he can't commit.
• Lexi eventually came back to Atlanta and met Bekah and her family, including Ramsey (Bekah's brother).
• Bekah is a bitch who has a plan all along and that is ruin Lexi and make her realize that Jack will never pick her, that she will always be the side hoe. And I strongly agree with Bekah with this.
• Then, Ramsey and Lexi started dating but Bekah made Lexi think that Ramsey was just doing these stuff because she asked him to but the truth is Ramsey's intention was clear, Bekah was just a bitch.
• After, I think, almost a year, Ramsey called Lexi to go to Jack and Bekah's wedding with him, Lexi hesitated but eventually came
• Lexi and Ramsey were dating again. A little bit serious this time.
• Lexi knew bout Ramsey's only ex-girlfriend, Parker, who is now a doctor and will be working closely with Ramsey for the Bridges new hospital wing.
• Ramsey hates Parker because he assumed Parker aborted their baby.
• Bekah knew bout Jack and Lexi shit and how they slept together before Bekah and Jack's engagement party.
• Jack and Bekah still got married.
• Bekah wants to divorce Jack cause she thinks he cheated on her.
• Lexi is helping Jack with the divorce.
• Jack realizes that he loves Lexi and that he was dumb to let her go. *rolling my eyes*
• Lexi was holding herself back and convincing herself that Ramsey is the one for her. *rolling my eyes again* /Ramsey is the one/
• Lexi came home early and saw Parker & Ramsey in Ramsey's office with Ramsey reading medical papers to prove that Parker had a miscarriage and didn't abort their baby.
• Lexi and Ramsey fought about why is it still a big deal to Ramsey to know whether Parker had a miscarriage or aborted the baby.
• Lexi decided to get out of their apartment and Ramsey asked her so many times not to and begged her to stay.
• Lexi still left and went to Jack's. *rolling my eyes harder*
• Lexi and Jack talked. More of Jack should've, could've, would've.
• Lexi decided to break it off with Ramsey. (Which is pure bullshit. Ramsey did everything to keep her. He changed his lifestyle for her which Lexi told him that he didn't have to even if he used to run stripper clubs that, for what I remembered, Lexi used to get mad about. It doesn't make sense!! lol)
• Lexi and Jack had multiple fucks that night.
• Bekah suddenly appeared in Jack's place and found Lexi there. She also mentioned Jack asking her a couple of days/weeks ago to work things out but Jack just shrugged it off. (This was another bullshit. If I were Lexi and heard that I wouldn't let that slip off cause wtf right)
• At the hearing for Jack and Bekah's divorce, Clark (Lexi's ex-boyfriend) appeared and told Jack that he was sleeping with Bekah for a year now.
• Jack and Bekah got divorced.
• Jack didn't technically proposed to Lexi but gave her like a promise ring. Lol

I know I suck at summaries but I tried my very best.

I think the biggest bullshit of this story was Jack and Lexi ending up together and Lexi breaking up Ramsey.

I know it is somehow bothering how Ramsey can't get over the Parker getting an abortion or a miscarriage shit but he turned his whole life around for her to be proud of what he does, of what he is.

He was the one who healed Lexi's pain that Jack caused.

I think Lexi is stupid for picking Jack. Jack who is a cheater and a liar.

If I were Lexi, I would've just fixed things up with Ramsey, resolve the issues and be live happily ever after.

Random 11:04 pm thought

Sometimes it's wrong to walk away though you think it's over knowing there's so much more to say

Warning: I feel emotional and not the right kind of emotional. It's the second day of my period and I feel crazy

Do you ever get that feeling when you see something that reminds you of someone.. someone that was once meant the world to you.. someone you thought who will be there for you no matter what.. And you can't help but feel that ache in the space he left in your heart? Yeah, that.

Tell me, have you ever loved and lost somebody. Wished there was a chance to say I'm sorry

You can't help but reminisce how it was back then.
How he looked at you with those James Dean daydream look in his eyes. (Yes, still a Swiftie)
How he made a way to show you how much he feels.. well, felt for you.
How he crossed bridges to get to you.. well, he didn't literally cross bridges but yah know.
How he made you feel like you're so special when you can't even find something special about you.
How he held your hand.. making you think like he wouldn't ever let go.
How you would look at him just to find him staring at you like you're the only girl in the room.
How vocal he was of how he felt cause it was his way of reassuring you.

Can't help but think this is wrong, we should be together. Back in your arms where I belong

It's weird how I can feel all those emotions again but, I know, I don't want it anymore.
I don't wanna be with him and not because he obviously doesn't wanna be with me but because I don't feel the same way as I did before... I can feel those emotions but I'm not in those emotions anymore.
I've changed, he has changed. We both have changed a lot.
We aren't the same as we were back then.

 Cause I loved and lost the day I let you go

Maybe in another lifetime, it wouldn't be as fuck up as this has become.
Maybe in another lifetime, you would choose me instead.
Maybe in another lifetime, it wouldn't be as complicated.
Maybe in another lifetime all the pain I felt will be worth it.
Maybe in another lifetime I wouldn't run away when things get too serious because I'm scared of committing or attaching myself to someone who will leave just like you.
Maybe in another lifetime, it will be as simple as "I love you, you love me. You make me happy, I make you happy"

I really wanna hear you say that you know just how it feels

To have it all and let it slip away, can't you see

Even though the moment's gone, I'm still holding on somehow

Wishing I could change the way the world goes round

But maybe I'm just wandering through the idea now and just letting these emotions take over me while listening to S Club 7's "Have you ever" on loop.
I know I have already closed the door to that phase in my life but nights like this make me wanna just pour it out in here and hope that, eventually, one day, it wouldn't make this kind of reaction out of me anymore.

The past is a nice place to visit sometimes.. to remind you of all the lessons you learned, all the mistakes you shouldn't repeat.
The lessons that made the person you are now. The lessons that serve as an evidence that you survived.. that made you stronger and wiser.